Unwritten...

back? hehe.

2008-02-07T21:31:00.000+08:00

hahahah! im not gonna close down this blog, naq. :P

okay, so i haven been blogging.. why? cos firstly, there's nothing interesting that's happening in my life so far.. and secondly, my internet has been down and the only time i use the internet is when im in school. and as a trainee teacher, of course u would wanna be at ur best behaviour and therefore, i refrain from blogging. and i try to do as little chatting in school too. haha.

been going out a lot these days. to the same old places. doing the same old things. huda says i have no life. 'thanks ah babe!' hahaha. however not much of a life it may seem for me, i am actually quite comfortable and is pretty used to this 'no life' of mine. how fun! ;)

oooh valentine's day coming up and people are already planning away. exciting eh? as for me? dun think i'll be doing anything 'special' on that day. cos firstly, the day falls on a weekday and i'll be all exhausted from school. and secondly, there's no second reason. i'll be tired, i'll have school the following day and therefore, i should not go out. hehee.

it's early. way too soon for my bed-time. since i have nothing more to add right now, looks like i'll just watch some tv with mother after this. be good, people! chao!

ps: honestly, i dunno who the hell visits and reads these entries anymore. haha!

short update.

2007-11-11T15:33:00.000+08:00

sooo many things have been happening. work, work, go out, work again, go out, then work again, go out, school, go out, work, study for BTT, work, go out, go out, work. hahaha. that's pretty much the stuffs that i have been doing. busy woman, i am. i know.

7/11: first clubbing experience with my elder bro and cuz. took some pictures.. but yeah, it's not too bad. not exactly fantastic either. might go again with the rest of the cousins. we'll see. haha. and yes, i've learnt to just wear some nice looking jeans/pants and a nice looking t-shirt and some nice looking shoes. flat pumps, i mean. no more heels. haha! and nope, no dresses again the next time. (well maybe, if i really have to. haha!)

tmr's my e-trial test at the driving centre and the following day is my basic theory test itself. that just means i've got some more studying/revising later tonight. Gosh, im nervous. wish me luck, guys! :)

ps: not looking forward to school. dear God, please help me!

happy 18th, farah!

2007-11-03T03:00:00.000+08:00

first and foremost, thanks to everyone who had taken time to wish me. be it through sms, msn, friendster comments, friendster messages, in person, etc, thank you. i appreciate all of them, really.

thanks to nur, charmian, zul and novia for the pink samsung mp3. i love it! in fact, i'm using it right now. saaayang you all. hehe.

thanks to my dear brother, afan for the pink, metal, clip-on watch. it was a pleasant surprise! an unexpected one too! i woke up in the morning and there he was! taking out the watch from the plastic bag to give it to me. how sweeeet.

thanks to farhan for the nike voucher, wallet shop voucher and of course, the tissue envelope.

thanks to dear azfar for the topshop lipbalm and some air freshener thing with a cute picture on it. it was very thoughtful of you laa. heh..

thanks also to my family, shakir, farhana and apek for being there to celebrate my birthday dinner with me.

thank you, thank you.

but of course! the best birthday gift i received came in 3 hours a little late. and guess what it was? a 3 and a half minute call from the boyfriend all the way from thailand!! OH MY GOD! that was the best la, i tell you. thank you God, for keeping me awake so that i could be there to pick up the phone when he called. hahaa!

and yes, right now, i'm just wishing and praying for the bf to come back home safely. that's all.

thank you, hun. the call means a lot to me.

i'm dead beat. i think i need a good rest. it's saturday. no plans for now. i'm most probably just following my parents around. i shall be a good daughter tomorrow. hehe.

ps: shakir, charmian, ivor, nur and zul. i'm sorry for postpoing the outing. we'll set aside a date next week, ya? i miss you people. :)

pps: birthday photos will be uploaded later. goodnight, all!

not excited. anymore. sigh.

2007-10-26T01:41:00.000+08:00

honestly, i WAS really looking forward to the day next week. but you know what, i am not feeling the same way today and tomorrow and the day after. a part of me is rather skeptical. there's a mixture of emotions. nervous, anxious, excited.. scared even? haha. so weird.

on a lighter note, i have requested a day off next Friday. and it is approved! hurray.

will be working later on (friday afternoon) from 2 to 5pm. i'm planning to meet the boyfriend after work. hopefully he'll be free. *prays hard*

thank you to the friend who has been keeping me sane all these while. i really appreciate all the efforts, really. i will try my best not to disappoint you. i realise i need my parent-friend more than i think i do. oh wells, whatever it is, thank you again.

-fa-

ps: my hati sakit.. (places overlapping palms across my heart.. HAHA.)

deal with it, farah..

2007-10-22T01:22:00.000+08:00

it was the most shittiest feeling i have ever felt.
but i believe things happen for a reason.
i believe there is a blessing in disguise behind all that.
and i do believe God has His reasons for it.

-fa-

please?

2007-10-20T01:27:00.000+08:00

i really really hope i get to meet and spend some quality time with the boyfriend tmr cause it really feels like it has been ages since we did that together.

you have no idea how much i miss him already.

Dear God, please make tmr a fantastic day for me. please.

thank you.

-fa-

mentally disturbed.

2007-10-18T00:45:00.000+08:00

i realise something. all my life i've always looked for confirmation. all my life i've always looked for approval of my actions. it's always.. "am i doing this right?", "is it good for me?", "are we exclusive yet?" etc etc. bloody insecure, i know. but that's me. i need all that shit.

perhaps i've always been daddy's little girl. whatever the case may be, it's really not that i'm looking for praises. it's not. trust me. in fact, i dun quite react well to praises. but ya la, it's always nice to know that you love me. to know that you actually do care about me. something which i have to ask myself time and again.

honestly, there are a few things i'm battling with myself. and i sure hope i'm not fighting a losing battle. because i love you. and i dun wanna lose you. but i bet you already know all that. i sometimes wonder if it actually makes a difference whenever i say it.

maybe i'm just talking a whole load of crap today. maybe i'm driven a bit more by my emotions than i normally would. i dunno. in fact, there's A LOT of things i do not know. it's always questions and more questions. rhetorical questions they seem to be.

i''ll be working tmr (thursday) from 5.30 to 9.30pm. truthfully speaking, from an outsider's point of view, my job is a no-brainer. super easy. but actually, it isn't so much like that. there are procedures to follow. you gotta be fast and accurate. i thank God there's a proper system there where they do things.

BUT even though the job may be draining, i find myself looking forward to work, to the business of the job. also, half expecting to get scolded when i do things wrongly. why? cos only then, will i learn and be better at my job. i also realise when you do things you like, when you have interest in whatever you're doing, it will be much easier for you.

then again, it's only my first week of work. we'll see how it goes. but this question did cross my mind though.

"did i do the right thing by taking up a job during my vacation? or shouldn't i have done it?"

there was a reason why i asked myself that. but, i won't write it down here. ask me if you really give a shit about me. goodnight..

-fa-

ps: no pictures for the time being. blogger's being such a girl by not letting me upload them.

random thought..

2007-10-12T05:43:00.000+08:00

when someone, specifically, a guy, wants to get to know a girl, claiming that he wanna be friends and then disappear after being told that she already has a boyfriend, she should know that he definitely had other motives up his sleeves. but, that's not too bad actually. the girl is considered pretty lucky.

the girl is not so lucky when a guy with the same other motives continue to pursue and use his skills to try and lure the girl even AFTER being told that she already has a boyfriend. now, that's a more dangerous game he is playing. and if the girl plays along, that's an even more dangerous game they are both playing.

why have i suddenly thought of such things at a time like this? at 5.54am to be exact. that's because a friend of mine was telling me about this particular someone another friend told him about just a few days ago. let's call this someone Smarty-Pants. (dun you laugh now. i'm serious!)

so basically, from what i gather, Smarty-Pants, to me, is what i would call a true 'smart' player. he targets a girl, someone preferably an easy target; or not, he doesn't care. then gets to know her, date her out a few times, at the same time psychoing by sweet-talking her, sleeps with her many times and then dump her nicely. believe it or not, it seems that his success rate is pretty high. damn you, human!

oh wait, and the best part is? he doesn't care if the girl has a boyfriend or not. scheisse!

i dunno ah. the whole story about that guy and how he is successful luring women, especially those who are taken is rather disturbing to me. makes me feel unsafe. and somehow, im pretty sure he's not the only one. there are plenty of guys like him out there.

i guess what im saying is that we females should just be extra cautious when a guy we just met is being extra nice to us. cos honestly, they do want something in return. and trust me, it's not just friendship they want.

haha. i sound so paranoid.

-fa-

ps: to the guys, shame on you if Smarty-Pants sounds like i'm describing who you are.

dad's birthday at the airport on 10th October 2007..

2007-10-11T16:39:00.000+08:00

my wonderful parents..

my younger brother..

the place where we had the birthday dinner..

look, she's so happy. and btw, that's the newly-renovated skytrain at t2..

sooo cheeky..

eee, geramnyeee..

i cannot get enough of you, Syaza..

"don't look at me. i'm innocent.."

just us siblings..

us siblings, again..

my 'action-fierce' brother..

my 'dorky' brother.. hah!

my protective brothers.. yes, even the younger one.. hehh..

and so we celebrated my dad's 53rd birthday (ahh, still so young) at airport's Swensen's. Gosh, two Swensen's trips in half a week! i must be crazy. well, no presents for the dad this year. just a birthday treat from us. :)

last terawih session tonight. last fasting day tomorrow. how fast time flies. and nope, not looking forward to raya this year. i'd rather stay at home and sleep, really. though i know the possibility of that happening is.. ZERO. haha!

could it be that i feel the meaning of raya is lost? could it be because i feel it is so over-rated? maybe it's just the possibility of running into people i don't quite fancy that much? i dunno. whatever it is, let's just hope it won't be as bad as i think it would be.

and you know what, i think every one needs a devil's advocate in their life at one point or another. though having a devil's advocate could really annoy the shit out of you and make you lose faith in yourself, they could also help you in more ways than one. right now, i only have one person that could fit that position perfectly in mind. and i think he knows who he is.

and they say i'm left-brain dominant. guess what? i think so too.

-fa-

outing with rai to marina square..

2007-10-10T00:30:00.000+08:00

in marina square's women toilet..

in the toilet, again..

me and rai doing that mirror-shot..

i had fish and chips..

rai had breaded chicken with chips..

we had calamari rings as the side..

me and rai.. without flash..

me and rai.. with flash this time..

the late afternoon was spent with rai around city hall area. first up, accompanied her to NUM to get her haviana slippers. not cheap, okay. hahaa. then, we proceeded to marina square. walked around aimlessly and updated each other on the stuffs that has been happening.

then, we went to Cavana to break fast. that was around 6.40pm. however, the place was packed and filled with this particular group of people and that, somehow, made us feel a bit uncomfortable. plus, the seats that were left sucked. so, rai suggested swensen's instead. good call, babe!

talked some more over dinner and shared a dessert as we were both quite full already. but too bad, i had forgotten to take a pic of that Frosted Chocolate Malt we ordered. heh.

after dinner, we walked back to city hall and headed home. it is always nice hanging out with her, really. i guess she's one of the very few friends of mine who is really sincere and isn't judgmental and because of that, it makes me feel very comfortable being around her.

damn, i'm so touchy-feely. eew. haha! goodnight, world!

-fa-

turns out good, afterall.

2007-10-07T02:23:00.000+08:00

woke up on the wrong side of the bed yesterday. and trust me, it rarely happens to me. yesterday was just one of those days la, i guess. plus, i had this really uneasy/uncomfortable feeling about something but i just can't put my finger on what the actual problem is. weird, weird.

and so in the afternoon, i decided to go meet the boyfriend in the end. looks like with him, i can't be egoistic for too long. heh. and also because i've missed him too much, i was thinking, i'd be really stupid if i get my damn ego get the better side of me. but then again, i tell you, i have not much ego to begin with. so yeah, makes it all the easier. haha!

whatever it is, i had a really good time. it feels really really nice to be near/around/beside the boyfriend. told you i'm pretty much an easily contented person. which, may not be a good thing all the time. haha. though what disappointed me a little was the fact that my boyfriend might be away on my birthday. -pout- but oh wells, it's okay. i shall be the understanding girlfriend and not complain. hehee.

and they say, opposites attract. oh, how true.

sakae sushi outing on 1st Oct..

2007-10-03T23:41:00.000+08:00

unagi. i think that would have to be my favourite dish. salmon teriyaki comes close behind. heh.

the usual sushis..

and that's the disgusting green tea noodle. haha.

my elder brother.

farhana. my brother's friend.

my shy younger brother.

and finally, say hello to the boyfriend. (tengok la. he refuse to pose a nice picture for me. cekik darah betol. haha.)

dinner at sakae sushi followed by a round of dessert/drinks at tcc. it was nice to have the boyfriend and siblings out at the same time. oh btw, you know what mummy said when she saw the pictures?

"wah, first time mama tengok Sadat pakai white." HAHA. and the best part? i wore white on that day too! totally unplanned and purely coincidental. how nice. hehh.

-fa-

peekchurs!!

2007-09-28T17:43:00.000+08:00

presenting Mont Blanc's ever-so-sexy name-card holder.. just like the person who's carying it. haha!

let's take a peek at the inside.. when it's flipped open.. heh..

and last but not least, timberland socks! haha! cute, riiight?? i know.. :p

oh wells, it's such a nice and comforting feeling for every girlfriend to know that the boyfriend's actually using the stuff that was given. ahhh, i'm on cloud 9 right now. 'nuff said.. thanks hun, for the pics!

anyways, i met Charmian for a while just now at tampines mall. she's leaving for europe tonight. wish i could see her off at the airport. but she insisted that i don't trouble myself. -pout- damn, i'm so gonna miss that girl! hope she'll have a safe and fun trip with the family. :)

this is it for today. gonna help around with the preparations for break fast in a bit. chao!

Sadat Bin Hassan..

2007-09-27T20:19:00.000+08:00

the boyfriend's gonna be super busy the next three days. -pout- but that's alright. we'll have the next week to have fun! woohoo!

i was chatting with a friend and was complaining about missing the boyfriend and things like that.. the conversation goes something like this.

friend: you should be grateful, woman.

me: i am.. i really am.. to be blessed with such a wonderful boyfriend. though i can't actually say that to him. haha!

friend: why?

me: he'll puke!

friend: hahahah!

me: but sometimes, i just do.. to annoy the shit out of him. HAHA!

so you see, i am a pretty annoying gf like that. and a sweet one too. hoho. ah, whatever. why the hell am i wasting my time here anyways? oh wells, i'm off. it's high time i get my butt up and help clean up the house. chao!

another quick random online test by okcupid.com..

2007-09-27T03:41:00.000+08:00

hello! here's The Dating Persona Test results at okcupid.com.. hehe.

The Priss
Deliberate Brutal Love Dreamer (DBLD)

Mature. Responsible. Aristocratic. Excuse me. The Priss.

Prisses are the smartest of all female types. You're highly perceptive, and confident in your judgements. You'd take brutal honesty over superficiality any time--your friends always know where they stand with you. You're completely unfake. Don't tell me that's not a word. You're also excellent at redirecting internal negative energy.

These facts indicate people are often intimidated by you. They also fall for you, hard. You have a distant, composed allure that many find irresistible. If only more of them lived up to your standards.

You were probably the last among your friends to have sex. And the first to pretend that you're pregnant. LOL. Though you're inclined to use sex as weapon, at least it's not as one of mass destruction. You're choosier than most about your partners. A supportive relationship is what you're really after. Whether you know it or not, you need something steady & long-term. And soothing.

Always avoid: The Playboy (RGSM), The Loverboy (RGLM)
Consider: The Manchild (RBLD)

it's just one of those days. i'll get over this soon.

2007-09-27T02:25:00.000+08:00

i seem to have trouble sleeping at night.

so much things on my mind.

not that i dun wanna sleep.

i do. i really do.

it's just that the moments before closing my eyes are the toughest.

i'm very inclined towards negative thoughts during those times.

they are bothering me.

so what do i do? i try to keep myself awake for as long as possible until i feel really exhausted.

like now, for example.

-fa-

ps: will you ever get bored of me? i sometimes wonder.

random online test.

2007-09-26T02:22:00.000+08:00

The ENNEAGRAM test by okcupid.com..

you chose CX - your Enneagram type is TWO (aka "The Charmer").

How to Get Along with Me...
Tell me that you appreciate me. Be specific.
Share fun times with me.
Take an interest in my problems, though I will probably try to focus on yours.
Let me know that I am important and special to you.
Be gentle if you decide to criticize me.

In Intimate Relationships...
Reassure me that I am interesting to you. (not gonna happen)
Reassure me that you love me. (not gonna happen)
Tell me I'm attractive and that you're glad to be seen with me. (not gonna happen)

What I Like About Being a TWO...
being able to relate easily to people and to make friends
knowing what people need and being able to make their lives better
being generous, caring, and warm
being sensitive to and perceptive about others' feelings
being enthusiastic and fun-loving, and having a good sense of humor

What's Hard About Being a TWO...
not being able to say no
having low self-esteem
feeling drained from overdoing for others
not doing things I really like to do for myself for fear of being selfish
criticizing myself for not feeling as loving as I think I should
being upset that others don't tune in to me as much as I tume in to them
working so hard to be tactful and considerate that I suppress my real feelings

happy birthday, hun!

2007-09-25T00:49:00.000+08:00

last evening was probably one of the happiest days of my life. (though i know there will be many more to come, insya'Allah.. hehe.) and yes, i have many happiest days in my life. uh-huh, go on.. be envious. haha!

anways, i'm not gonna write a compo here.. fine details are for me to remember and treasure. but whatever it is, here's the gist of what happened on a certain Monday, 24th September 2007. (oh, i just love remembering dates. haha.)

broke fast with Sadat. asked him to close his eyes. started off with hand-made birthday card with our picture in it and a timberland carrier containing timberland socks. yes, socks. just when he thought that was it, it gets better. was asked to close his eyes again. surprised him with a mont blanc carrier. a name-card holder in it. speechless Sadat. happy me. and that's not all. slice of blackforest cake from bengawan solo. lighted candle. secret wish from me. blew out the candle. sharing of cake. sent me back. said hello to the family. and of course, the oh-so-famous teh tarik for him from mommy.

all that resulted in what i would assume a very happy Sadat and an even happier Farah. how cute is that? haha.

you know, the look on his face when he received the gift was priceless. it made ME happy seeing HIM happy. to me, the whole thing was simple, yet very special. oh boy, i hope i made a difference to the day before his actual birthday. heh.

i just LOVE giving people surprises. and do bear in mind that i only give surprises to those who really matter to me.

and it's only 1am now. i'm not officially wishing him just yet. the birthday wish will have to wait for a bit.

thank you, hun. for making me an extremely happy girl. :)

-fa-

blank..

2007-09-19T17:29:00.000+08:00

it's funny how a few words can hurt you badly.

imagine the damage that might result.

it's too much. i'd rather not think.

-fa-

random thoughts..

2007-09-18T16:47:00.000+08:00

1. the boyfriend's not going to china. yay! i believe that's a blessing in disguise.

2. i miss Nur, Zul, Charmian, Novia, Rai, Irra, Azfar, Shakir and many more others.

3. shaving will not lead to coarser hair when it re-grows. really. it only feels like that.

4. the boyfriend has a new nickname for me. haha.

5. Zul's not going back to Brunei this time round cos his passport has expired. HAHA. kental seh.

6. i have a freaking competitor. @#%!%@$%^#

7. it's exactly one week to your birthday. you know who you are.

8. try not to make plans unnecessarily on that day. please?

9. azfar's working at geylang bazaar this whole of fasting month selling men's baju kurung. how cute.

10. i wanna go bintan after hari raya. it'd be very nice if you could come with me. but i'd understand if you can't. :)

11. this sunday is cousins-buka-together day.

12. lying on your stomach while typing on the laptop is very bad, especially when your stomach is empty. it hurts like hell!

13. the internet is an evil evil thing as it disables you from doing other things more constructive.

14. i wanna go ikea to get some new stuff to decorate my room.

15. i'm thinking of going white this raya. it's just a thought. we'll see how it goes.

16. i miss my missy donut. thanks to the other type of dessert i had. heh.

17. i'm craving for many foods right now. including you.

18. the more i look at you, the more i can picture spending the rest of my life with you. it's not supposed to be sweet. it's a fact.

that's it for today. pure randomness. and oh, if you are actually observant enough, you'd know why there are as many points as there are up there. have a great day, people! :)

-fa-

bookworm..

2007-09-14T22:30:00.000+08:00

been spending my time reading a book titled 'a place called here' by cecilia ahern. not too bad, i must say. the starting's a little slow but as you go on, the pace quickened and in no time, the book will get you hooked. (wow, it kinda rhymes. heh.)

i miss the boyfriend very much. i just hope he's okay and missing me too. heh.

he's right. dealing with a woman is like dealing with 10 crew on-board the ship. i guess i'm no exception. bleargh.

i need more books to keep myself occupied. and i need 'clean' ones so as to preserve my fast. hoho. any recommendations, people?

i need my boyfriend. where the hell is he?

goodnight, folks. be good and happy fasting!

-fa-

thank youuu.

2007-08-31T00:36:00.001+08:00

i'm such a lucky girl. today, i received my very first Teacher's Day gift. it was soo sweet of my tutee to do so la. sighs. i felt so loved and appreciated, knoww. oh wells, that really made my day.

anyways, i'm leaving for Australia tomorrow evening. yayyy! BUT. i'm not really feeling it yet. i'm feeling quite nervous, actually. thanks to my last exam paper tmr morning. it is a 2-hour paper, from 9.30 to 11.30am. sighs.

well, looking on the brighter side, it's only 10 hrs away from the end of the paper before i celebrate by going to serangoon first to do threading. HAHA.

i'm so looking forward to tomorrow. only I know why. hehee. goodnight, all.

-fa-

ps: dear God, please help me. please make me pass. please. please. please. you know i love you. thank you.

welcome back, hun.

2007-08-23T18:09:00.001+08:00

received a phone call this morning and when i looked at the caller display, my heart skipped a beat. "6861****" the first four numbers were enough to make my day. the rest of the numbers just didn't matter. hahaa. sneaky sneaky eh, hun.

today, besides the many things i learnt for my exam tmr, i also learnt that nobody likes to entertain extremely whiny callers.

there's always the wall to talk to, if you really must. (note to self too) hahaa.

and i also realised that some people are phone-talkers while others just simply aren't. and i think i'm becoming more and more of the latter. hehh.

wish me luck for tmr!

-fa-

two little dickie birds.

2007-08-19T19:14:00.000+08:00

niece and i at tanah merah safra resort.

another niece and i. also at the safra resort.

me, at the changi beach with the family. i really really like night picnic. :)

been sick for the past one week. thought my immune system is strong enough to handle it but looks like it's not. so, i guess i'll be heading down to the polyclinic after i hand in my yet-to-be-completed assignments tmr morning. oh, i just love last minute work, don't i? hehe.

i realised i am a more jealous person than i think i am. so, it's true then. scorpios are generally very jealous people. but whether we are people who are difficult to live with? well, i dunno. maybe you should ask my brothers that. on the other hand, didn't you know we're also very sexy and passionate creatures? hahaa.

the boyfriend's still in Doha. and i was just told that he would be delayed for another few more days. dammits! dear God, please let him come home asap. thank you. heh.

next week is study week. i have about slightly less than a week to study for the first paper and another whole week to study for the next. and after that, i'm off! off to Australia (Gold Coast) with my parents. woohoo! i am so excited. i just need to suffer a bit for the next two weeks and then i will be free for the following THREE months. yes, THREE freaking months. hmm, that shouldn't be too much of a problem, right? yea, i hope so. *silent prayer*

this is it, all. goodnight!

-fa-

ps: and haven't i already mention? i am so missing the boyfriend. hehee.

happy happy girl.

2007-08-09T22:27:00.000+08:00

hey hey. it has been a while, eyy? well, what can i say.. i am a busy girl. hahaa.

spent my National day holiday with Sadat today. it was fun!

we walked around taka and visited paragon where he got his Guess jeans. oh yes, he's a happy man now. haha. then, we went over to novena square to collect his linen shirt at Celio. it was a superb deal, alright.

had late late lunch at novena square's Fish and Co. and as usual, we 'couple-observed' the couple two tables away from us. hahaa.

after that, we went over to parkway where he got me a lipgloss. walk walk and lepaked at starbucks for a bit before sending me home.

i'm a happy happy girl. things have been great. i love the way things are. and somehow, it just keeps getting better. -smiles-

heading back to school to finish up my project tmr. i just can't wait to get this sem over and done with. grrr.

this is it. goodnight, all. :)

updates..

2007-07-24T20:44:00.000+08:00

on monday, i got my first sewing assignment done and half the second done. so, i have one and a halfway more to go for sewing. yay!

and today, i had my public speaking informative speech test. it was not too bad la. though 5 minutes time limit was clearly too short for me. damn! was the fourth and last group to present. and im glad we had it over and done with! oh, thank God! so, that means, i'm left with an MCQ test on the next two weeks and one subject is OVER! another yay. that aside, i think i'm definitely gonna miss my public speaking classmates. they are so much better than the japanese classmates i had last semester la. oops! heh. or perhaps, it's just the fact that charmian is in my class and it makes all the difference in the world. :)

it has been very very cold these past few days/nights. personally, i wouldn't wanna sleep with the air-con during weathers like this. but since i'm not sleeping alone on sunday to wednesday nights, i don't have much choice there, do it? heh.

and now, i'm all alone at home. family left for nenek's place for dinner while i was 'napping' on the sofa. serve me right for sleeping. now, i'm dinner-less. pout.

oh! they're back. with no food. no surprise, there! haha. so it's apples for tonight. goodnight, all!

-fa-

by Dr. Kate M. Wachs

2007-07-11T20:24:00.001+08:00

i'm currently reading this book entitled 'relationships for dummies'. not that i am a dummy. but i have to do a research on this topic for my public speaking informative speech next week. haha. yes, yes, how cool, right? i know.

and there's this statement which i find rather interesting. it says, "guys, genereally find it easier to have sex with someone they dislike." i was like, what the hell?! haha.

perhaps, it's true for some guys. and my guess would be by doing so, there's no need to deal with the emotional attachment after that and thus, it is easier for them to let go and move on to the next one. but if they do it with someone they actually like, there'll most probably be a thousand and one things on their mind after that one night of passion. -shrugs-

also, it was stated that women, on the other hand, may not even perceive sex (after a date) as a compliment, but rather, a sign that the man hasn't had a good time on the date and wants to salvage something for his money. HAHA. hilarious, but something i would agree more with.

and my point is, men and women have to constantly bear in mind that we are both unidentical creatures and that our sexual reasons are most likely to be very different from each other. thus, if in doubt, always ask. heh.

goodnight, all.

ps: i'm missing the boyfriend. -pout-

rantings you don't wanna read.

2007-07-06T12:53:00.000+08:00

im tired. im bored. i have many deadlines to be met. and im not doing anything about it. YET. what a pemalas nak mampos. haha.

i'm really looking forward to the coming hols. (it's at least a month and a half away. damnits!) i would love to BELIEVE that it will past by very fast. but that also means that the exams are gonna be even sooner. hahaa.

so many plans. so little time. so little money. how like that? we have batam and phuket in mind. hmm, australia's too expensive. so for that, i think i'll just go with the parents since my friends are unable to tag along. -pout-

whatever it is, i really hope me and charmian will execute our phuket trip early next year. so, in the meanwhile, i'll just have to pray hard that there won't be any disaster or riots there for months to come. hehe.

as for batam, charmian will get back to me on that. it'll be fun! spa, massages, beach, sun-tanning (yeah, right. HAHA.) well, you won't catch me dead with a bikini in singapore. but overseas? hmmmm. hahahaha.

oh wells, i think i better start on my sewing soon. im sorry ah. but i just strong dislike the lecturer ah. nothing i do will ever meet her 'standards'. she better pass me at the end of the semester. *silent prayer*

im done for today. chao!

gst-hike craze.

2007-07-01T19:10:00.000+08:00

spent the day with Sadat last Saturday. singaporeans, including myself, are crazy, i tell you. last day before gst hike and everyone suddenly decides to go shopping. haha. so needless to say, vivo was jam-packed with people. bloody annoying la, okay.

had my eye on this really nice dress at WAREHOUSE. but guess what? the neckline was PLUNGING and the length was a little too short for mummy's liking. haha. so yes, too bad i can't get it. -pout-

had lunch at fig and olive's. i had grilled dory (that's fish for you, in case you do not know) with mushroom pasta while he had something (i can't remember) pasta with carbonara sauce. never tried there prior to the visit yesterday. and i must say, it's not too bad, really. just dun expect great service la, okay? hehh.

all in all, i had a good time. spending time with the boyfriend is always refreshing.

-fa-

two minutes.

2007-06-27T00:16:00.001+08:00

i waited for one whole day and in the end, i only got 2 and a half minutes. HAHA.

i wish i knew which buttons not to press. honestly, im not sure what i can ask and what i should not ask. and if you were to take away all the things that I THINK i'm not supposed to ask, i'm left with very little areas to cover. haha.

whatever it is, i'm not having second thoughts. i'm content with the two minutes, really. cos the last thing i want is to hinder you from achieving your goals.

get well soon, hun.

-fa-

i sound like a man.

2007-06-26T21:30:00.000+08:00

there's nobody else in this world right now that i'd rather be with but you.

and i mean it with all my heart.

-fa-

ps: thank you, God.

sick = cranky?

2007-06-24T00:13:00.000+08:00

bakar girls and i all excited over our cute little presents..

moments before we actually sleep.. HAHA!

runny nose + blocked nose = sleepless nights.

and let me tell you. it is SUPER irritating when you can't seem to be able to sleep peacefully because every half an hour, you have to rush to the toilet to blow your nose away. -pout-

your 'once-a-day' message never fail to make my day. especially when you're a million miles away from me. hehh.

my saturday was spent by paying a visit to spotlight to get some fabric for my next LSew1 assignment. i'm expecting a very busy few weeks ahead of me. sighs.

oh and have i mention? one should NEVER over-eat at a buffet dinner. i ended up having a super full-stomach, i could barely breathe. HAHA.

no wonder God has taught us to eat only about 1/3 of our maximum capacity. why? cos the other 1/3 goes to liquids and the last 1/3 goes to air for breathing. i really should bear that in mind next time. hehee.

goodnight, all.

-fa-

ps: come back home soon.. i need you.

note to self: communication is the key to a long-lasting relationship.

2007-06-20T22:51:00.000+08:00

been having my 'i-feel-ugly' days lately. haha. i dunno why ah. maybe cos my face da start its breakouts and im just feeling fat these days. (yes hun, i hear you. haha!)

can i say this? no boyfriend should ever make the girlfriend feel ugly. i mean, reminding her that she needs to get back on track is okay. (bear in mind that you gotta be careful when touching this topic.) but telling her straight up that 'i-can-find-prettier-girls-than-you-anytime-anyday' is a big NO-NO. like what the hell, wake up laa. you so need to get back down to earth, man.

anyways, i feel that a partner should never make you feel bad about yourself. NEVER. a good partner should be there helping you boost your self-esteem when you need it and not destroy it.

and yes, the 'i-think-ure-too-immature-for-me' issue should also be avoided by anyone at any cost. if you really think so, then why the hell are you still with him/her? angkat kaki jalan ah! give yourself and more importantly him/her some respect ah, please. there's more than one way to solve an issue you two are facing, know. grrr.

on a lighter note, i've been very happy lately. too happy, according to my brothers. but honestly, i dun really have a reason why. well, it's way better than the 'moody-me' whaaat. so enjoy it while it lasts, folks. hahaa!

goodnight, all!

-fa-

ps: i'll miss you, hun.

what a mess! grr.

2007-06-13T15:43:00.000+08:00

my house is in a complete mess. thanks to my latest buy; the sewing machine from COURTS. hahaa. and so, i've decided to get myself a sewing machine in the end. i think it's a wise decision, really.

started operating it this morning. and im like a quarter to half-way through my product now. i'm making a make-up purse. hahaa. how girly, i know. but you should have a look at the material first. it's as girly as hell, i tell you. not that hell is girly. but ahhh, u get my point. haha.

tuition session in a bit. and after that, i'm off to either meeting him or the girls. it would have to depend on his availability. so yeah, we'll see about that later.

and btw, in case you haven't already know, i really like my new sewing machine. hahaa. chao!

-fa-

ps: slumber party with the bakar girls this weekend! i can't wait.

friends..

2007-06-08T12:50:00.000+08:00

so it was a pleasant surprise! how cute.

anyways, yesterday was my last paper for the term test. so that just means my 2-weeks break have officially started as of today. hehh.

after the paper, me, nur, charmian, azfar and zul headed ljs at century square to have our lunch. needless to say, when u put me, nur, and charmian together, our conversations just run wild. haha. from pubic hair to armpit hair to whatever else you can think of. haha.

it's cute how zul is so interested but is so shy to join in. while azfar on the other hand, acts more interested in playing the psp but we know that he's actually eavesdropping on us. haha.

i love the friends, really. despite our differences and our forever non-existing plans like going swimming for example, we can still laugh about it and continue to make more plans. haha.

-fa-

ps: i wanna see you. but i dun wanna be taken for granted too.

pleasant/unpleasant surprise? ( delete where applicable)

2007-06-06T17:50:00.000+08:00

here i am. in the library. waiting for him. oh, have i mentioned? he doesn't know. haha.

but not to worry la. i came prepared to be waiting for hours or to not be able to meet him at all. haha. so yes, i'm good. i'll just wait for any news from him then.

eeeeeee. and have i told you that it's so sejuk in here? someone lend me your jacket, please!

-fa-

Fourth for Bakar Girls!

2007-06-03T10:13:00.000+08:00

pictures; courtesy of Nid..

bakar girls: before the tournament

wags and me: after the tournament at banquet

several people have asked me. and i said, yes, maybe, i dunno. hahaa.

had captain's ball tournament organised by NUS Muslim Society yesterday. it was happening, i tell you. haha. body aches i get this morning was worth it.

i realised i get affected by others easily. and i tend to just let it be and not fight back about it for fear of making the situation any more unpleasant. but would that actually make things better or worse?

and i hate the image some people have of me. and i am slowly learning not to care. just watch me.

-fa-

paranoia.

2007-05-21T12:45:00.000+08:00

why? why am i feeling this way? i hate this feeling, really. there was a reason why i held back so much. but now that im slowly (well, not very slowly), opening myself up, i feel scared. i feel vulnerable.

i guess only time will tell.

God, i really need to start studying. i really do. someone, help me. haha. well, buenas noches, everyone! :)

-fa-

body aches.

2007-05-18T13:34:00.000+08:00

Nid was right.

"Happy people dun blog that often."
i swear, it's true okay. but don't you think it's a weird phenomenon? hahaha.

i've been busy lately. gonna have another round of captain's ball training tonight. ooh, im excited. but for now, i shall go and have some rest first. my body's screaming for help.

-fa-

ps: i know i've not been seeing you lately. i feel guilty and i'm sorry. i will do so soon. please forgive me. thank you, God.

nice fresh air..

2007-05-14T20:17:00.000+08:00

it's nice to be have a change in environment. and and, i really like the address of the blog. well, i'm sure some people must be thinking, "God, i bet the author is a minah."

but guess what honey, i dun care. im too used to all that now. have more important things to worry about, really. some of which, i know im not supposed to be affected by. but hey, im trying and i'm only human.

thanks to Nur, my sayang, for wanting to help me 'decorate' this blog. cos honestly, i have no idea how to configure blogs, edit them and stuff. plus, i can't be bothered to learn anyways. i'd rather have a good read than figure out how to do all of that. so, i guess i'll just leave it to the experts.

family dinner at changi in a bit. im psyched.

-fa-

Unwritten...

back? hehe.

short update.

happy 18th, farah!

not excited. anymore. sigh.

deal with it, farah..

please?

mentally disturbed.

random thought..

dad's birthday at the airport on 10th October 2007..

outing with rai to marina square..

turns out good, afterall.

sakae sushi outing on 1st Oct..

peekchurs!!

Sadat Bin Hassan..

another quick random online test by okcupid.com..

it's just one of those days. i'll get over this soon.

random online test.

happy birthday, hun!

blank..

random thoughts..

bookworm..

thank youuu.

welcome back, hun.

two little dickie birds.

happy happy girl.

updates..

by Dr. Kate M. Wachs

rantings you don't wanna read.

gst-hike craze.

two minutes.

i sound like a man.

sick = cranky?

note to self: communication is the key to a long-lasting relationship.

what a mess! grr.

friends..

*pleasant/unpleasant surprise? (* delete where applicable)

Fourth for Bakar Girls!

paranoia.

body aches.

nice fresh air..

pleasant/unpleasant surprise? ( delete where applicable)