Thursday, February 7, 2008
back? hehe.
hahahah! im not gonna close down this blog, naq. :Pokay, so i haven been blogging.. why? cos firstly, there's nothing interesting that's happening in my life so far.. and secondly, my internet has been down and the only time i use the internet is when im in school. and as a trainee teacher, of course u would wanna be at ur best behaviour and therefore, i refrain from blogging. and i try to do as little chatting in school too. haha.
been going out a lot these days. to the same old places. doing the same old things. huda says i have no life. 'thanks ah babe!' hahaha. however not much of a life it may seem for me, i am actually quite comfortable and is pretty used to this 'no life' of mine. how fun! ;)
oooh valentine's day coming up and people are already planning away. exciting eh? as for me? dun think i'll be doing anything 'special' on that day. cos firstly, the day falls on a weekday and i'll be all exhausted from school. and secondly, there's no second reason. i'll be tired, i'll have school the following day and therefore, i should not go out. hehee.
it's early. way too soon for my bed-time. since i have nothing more to add right now, looks like i'll just watch some tv with mother after this. be good, people! chao!
ps: honestly, i dunno who the hell visits and reads these entries anymore. haha!
Posted by me at 9:31 PM
Sunday, November 11, 2007
short update.
sooo many things have been happening. work, work, go out, work again, go out, then work again, go out, school, go out, work, study for BTT, work, go out, go out, work. hahaha. that's pretty much the stuffs that i have been doing. busy woman, i am. i know.
7/11: first clubbing experience with my elder bro and cuz. took some pictures.. but yeah, it's not too bad. not exactly fantastic either. might go again with the rest of the cousins. we'll see. haha. and yes, i've learnt to just wear some nice looking jeans/pants and a nice looking t-shirt and some nice looking shoes. flat pumps, i mean. no more heels. haha! and nope, no dresses again the next time. (well maybe, if i really have to. haha!)
tmr's my e-trial test at the driving centre and the following day is my basic theory test itself. that just means i've got some more studying/revising later tonight. Gosh, im nervous. wish me luck, guys! :)
ps: not looking forward to school. dear God, please help me!
Posted by me at 3:33 PM
Saturday, November 3, 2007
happy 18th, farah!
first and foremost, thanks to everyone who had taken time to wish me. be it through sms, msn, friendster comments, friendster messages, in person, etc, thank you. i appreciate all of them, really.thanks to nur, charmian, zul and novia for the pink samsung mp3. i love it! in fact, i'm using it right now. saaayang you all. hehe.
thanks to my dear brother, afan for the pink, metal, clip-on watch. it was a pleasant surprise! an unexpected one too! i woke up in the morning and there he was! taking out the watch from the plastic bag to give it to me. how sweeeet.
thanks to farhan for the nike voucher, wallet shop voucher and of course, the tissue envelope.
thanks to dear azfar for the topshop lipbalm and some air freshener thing with a cute picture on it. it was very thoughtful of you laa. heh..
thanks also to my family, shakir, farhana and apek for being there to celebrate my birthday dinner with me.
thank you, thank you.
but of course! the best birthday gift i received came in 3 hours a little late. and guess what it was? a 3 and a half minute call from the boyfriend all the way from thailand!! OH MY GOD! that was the best la, i tell you. thank you God, for keeping me awake so that i could be there to pick up the phone when he called. hahaa!
and yes, right now, i'm just wishing and praying for the bf to come back home safely. that's all.
thank you, hun. the call means a lot to me.
i'm dead beat. i think i need a good rest. it's saturday. no plans for now. i'm most probably just following my parents around. i shall be a good daughter tomorrow. hehe.
ps: shakir, charmian, ivor, nur and zul. i'm sorry for postpoing the outing. we'll set aside a date next week, ya? i miss you people. :)
pps: birthday photos will be uploaded later. goodnight, all!
Posted by me at 3:00 AM
Friday, October 26, 2007
not excited. anymore. sigh.
honestly, i WAS really looking forward to the day next week. but you know what, i am not feeling the same way today and tomorrow and the day after. a part of me is rather skeptical. there's a mixture of emotions. nervous, anxious, excited.. scared even? haha. so weird.on a lighter note, i have requested a day off next Friday. and it is approved! hurray.
will be working later on (friday afternoon) from 2 to 5pm. i'm planning to meet the boyfriend after work. hopefully he'll be free. *prays hard*
thank you to the friend who has been keeping me sane all these while. i really appreciate all the efforts, really. i will try my best not to disappoint you. i realise i need my parent-friend more than i think i do. oh wells, whatever it is, thank you again.
-fa-
ps: my hati sakit.. (places overlapping palms across my heart.. HAHA.)
Posted by me at 1:41 AM
Monday, October 22, 2007
deal with it, farah..
it was the most shittiest feeling i have ever felt.but i believe things happen for a reason.
i believe there is a blessing in disguise behind all that.
and i do believe God has His reasons for it.
-fa-
Posted by me at 1:22 AM
Saturday, October 20, 2007
please?
i really really hope i get to meet and spend some quality time with the boyfriend tmr cause it really feels like it has been ages since we did that together.
you have no idea how much i miss him already.
Dear God, please make tmr a fantastic day for me. please.
thank you.
-fa-
Posted by me at 1:27 AM
Thursday, October 18, 2007
mentally disturbed.
i realise something. all my life i've always looked for confirmation. all my life i've always looked for approval of my actions. it's always.. "am i doing this right?", "is it good for me?", "are we exclusive yet?" etc etc. bloody insecure, i know. but that's me. i need all that shit.perhaps i've always been daddy's little girl. whatever the case may be, it's really not that i'm looking for praises. it's not. trust me. in fact, i dun quite react well to praises. but ya la, it's always nice to know that you love me. to know that you actually do care about me. something which i have to ask myself time and again.
honestly, there are a few things i'm battling with myself. and i sure hope i'm not fighting a losing battle. because i love you. and i dun wanna lose you. but i bet you already know all that. i sometimes wonder if it actually makes a difference whenever i say it.
maybe i'm just talking a whole load of crap today. maybe i'm driven a bit more by my emotions than i normally would. i dunno. in fact, there's A LOT of things i do not know. it's always questions and more questions. rhetorical questions they seem to be.
i''ll be working tmr (thursday) from 5.30 to 9.30pm. truthfully speaking, from an outsider's point of view, my job is a no-brainer. super easy. but actually, it isn't so much like that. there are procedures to follow. you gotta be fast and accurate. i thank God there's a proper system there where they do things.
BUT even though the job may be draining, i find myself looking forward to work, to the business of the job. also, half expecting to get scolded when i do things wrongly. why? cos only then, will i learn and be better at my job. i also realise when you do things you like, when you have interest in whatever you're doing, it will be much easier for you.
then again, it's only my first week of work. we'll see how it goes. but this question did cross my mind though.
"did i do the right thing by taking up a job during my vacation? or shouldn't i have done it?"
there was a reason why i asked myself that. but, i won't write it down here. ask me if you really give a shit about me. goodnight..
-fa-
ps: no pictures for the time being. blogger's being such a girl by not letting me upload them.